i'm sorry mum and dad for being a useless daughter

you've both given me all the freedom and trust

and i misused it terribly, mostly on partying

i used to achieve much

making you both beam with pride

honours in my ballet exams year after year

and many random achievements that i deemed unimportant

now it means the world to me

though i was always disappointed when you don't attend my performances

though some are only roadshows

performing used to be part of my life

but now i've stopped dancing, stopped performing

even the year-end performance which i'm supposed to be in

i haven't been attending any rehearsals at all

you both are doing all you can for me now

and it gives me a guilty streak

in fact i'm living in guilty days now

everyday i wake up feeling guilty

that i have failed my parents, God and those who care

it takes so much for me to study i don't know why

i don't want to see failure again

i know i used to make my parents proud

but it didn't seem significant in the past

today..

i want more than anything else

just for any small achievement

i'm at a great loss.....