shattered at 6:14 PM

i got really worried today due to a loss of appetite
yest i had only choclate eclair,some famous amos cookies,the strawberry ice thingy from mos, ben and jerry's ice cream,one or two popcorns,and only the fries and one piece of chicken from lj
that equals to like less than half of my daily appetite and it scares me cause i actually felt weak this morn due to lack of food
i really wonder how some girls can don't eat at all (refer to huicheng's comment on a lampost)
well other than that i pity girls who have eating disorders.
so deprived!
i've never dieted my whole life other than the time
my ballet teacher fined me $5 for every one kg i put on
but now i'm so depressed plus deprived
no.1 i don't really have the mood to eat unless u buy me food and stuff it into my mouth
no.2 i don't feel like eating anything everything tastes bad and i mean it bad.
no. 3 i no longer have those cravings like ooh i feel like having prata bomb. this that blah blah
no. 4 no food satisfies me


i mean pls. fat than fat lar. we live to eat don't we. at least i do. if i die today. i'm glad to say that i've no regrets dying with regards to eating