today has special significance for once
21th. this year next yr. u liar. i believed that f.y.i.
honestly i never cared much about such a day. considering my r/n either hardly lasted more than a month or i forgot about the day. mostly i hardly bothered. i was such a person i hate to remember that
to you.
its hard to let u know. i don't want to say cause you don't really care to know anyway. i don't want to be blatant with my feelings anymore. well to you there seems to be no significance. but its all from my heart. just that sincere. no less. despite all that i feel, i will not attempt to do anything. since even to me it seems impossible between us already. though a large part of me hopes for a happier ending. you don't seem to even consider me as a fren. i'll still not do anything. after all i never believed in cultured feelings. me doing so much just to make u look back. its useless. if u want to. u would just do so by your own account. because till now, my feelings have not changed a single bit despite different circumstances. once again. who cares. cos u don't
i'll still be waiting hoping holding on till god knows when. pathetic, desperate stupid foolish whatever. love is irrational ok. u stupidly let your heart rule and this is what happens
on every this today i give myself the liberation to think about the memories legally. on other days. such thoughts are illegal.
until maybe next month. my blog will no longer carry thoughts about you.
a year ago. i gave myself a caution. that i will never date a vs guy.
no offence to guys's from vs. really.
this year too. a fellow vs guy told me never to date a vs guy.
seem like this will be a hard lesson to follow.
whatever jon said about emerging as the stronger i can't remember. HELP
uhuh. when one door closes another will open. i don't even bother about any other doors.
you made me weaker than never before everyone can see. dammit.
i said i'm forever changed by you and what u meant to me. for the better --it hurts so much to be emotional now. but i'm happy with the change. now life is worth living even when i get so down.
search your conscience people. there's karma trust me.
that's me.
on a happier note. the chalet came and gone. happy days always go so fast. boo.smart lian. miss ya.
there their b'dae celebration at 12.00am.
some people still can play xbox. 
and come saturday. my freedom will be majorly restricted. whatever. not like i still club. i just don't wish to disappoint my parents. yes i don't admit this often. but they've been great parents, giving me way too much trust.
