shattered at 8:43 AM

i'm trying very hard to cope. trying very hard not to crash. i am definitely hard hit by it, the past week has been the worst. not something i have ever expected to go through in my whole life. whether god has always been kind to me, or i have been living in a fantasy, outside the real world for the past 17 years. never have i thought my emotions were real. and now i know, they actually do exist. though still very much crushed, i'm trying to hold up my spirits. the hurt i've been brought through i'll never forget. all i need is for him to talk to me. just for clearance.
whatever i have learnt , all my feelings thoughts experiences. only shared with the close ones.

u grew up so much the past week
emotionally, spiritually mentally.
established friendships that will last till the end
also maturity in love
i'm surprised at you girl

a big thanks to the gang who provided me comfort, company, advice this whole period. all our whole days out and still chatting at night. i'll never forget that. i love them all and as u win some u lose some. i certainly gained so much more than i lost.

once i'm back to normal. i'll post about all our fun and pics.