shattered at 7:06 PM

i'm going wayy down and i know i shouldn't be feeling like this again. just trying to force a smile takes so much effort. now i'm broken. half the person the person i thought i could be. but u still can have what's left of me.

i want to dig my hole and hide in it. cos these are times when i want to disappear from the face of this world
its getting too diffcult. the stress the u. i'd like to think i'm the strongest out there. but sadly i'm not. at least not now. not anymore. this is when i will disappear for a while again till i'm fine

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i miss the days when life was all about fun.
why am i stuck in the shadow of my mistakes now
god . i need theraputic help again. the insomnia is back. and u. are not here to cure it.