shattered at 12:34 AM

a discussion of my fears today
i contemplated hard
and realised i was one fearful of life
yet fearful of death
i have too much in life to lose it all
yet i am timid in embracing challenges
i do not treasure what i have
but i yet so fearful of not meeting the potential that i have
all these facets of life
that i have to slowly comprehend
and hopefully mature in thinking



despite such insightful ambitions
i am so certain tmr's maths test will be my downfall yet again
someone remind me that its no more 'play play'
unfortunately there are many moments i am preoccupied with my silly habits
tv and my com or just lazing around
discipline is definately not in my vocabulary



though school will always be this energy-consuming
juggling dance practices with studies
but i am reminded of what i read in tasha's blog.
and am motivated by it
if it doesn't kill u
it will only make u stronger
someone to ponder on
that we all have the strength to be put into moulding
to me.
its only a matter of mind over matter
as long as your mind tells you so.
you will be able to achieve
but.. hehe.
if only my mind can start working!